Qalbon Maftooh, Paperback Book, By: Abdo Wazen

An Open Heart" isahard-to-describe book "The poet envies the musician because his fingers, when they pass the strings, make an anthem without letters - the poet envies the painter because his brush is made of colors, the sky, the sea, the house, and people passing in front of the house/ The poet does not envy himself Because he is ever wounded - stabbed by the flower of light - waiting for the sky to clear - watching death's door / the poet does not envy himself because he is always restless - always restless - always waiting. This is what Abdo Wazen wrote in his previous book, "A Moatalla. " However, in his new book, "An Open Heart," the poet changed the standards and unintentionally contradicted his saying, perhaps, and the act of "envy" became a reality on the poet himself after he surprised everyone with his creative ability to transform his experience. The most cruel and painful subjectivity into an artistic tool that captures the mind and heart of the reader to enter a world full of magic, creativity and beauty. The poet became like an alchemist who knows how to make gold from dust. Just as gold and silver are tested by fire, so the poet's creative energy is tested by pain. This is how "Open Heart" came about, the result of a serious surgery that was performed on Abdo Wazen after he experienced death, and he emerged from him with the feeling of a "new-born. "And this new birth, which began from the first page and extended to the pages of the book until the end of it: "I am writing now, I have truly come back to life. How beautiful you are, O life, when you rise from behind the wall of the night" (p. 208), not separated from the religious meaning. The writer describes himself as a "innately religious being. "This "new birth" created a distance between him and himself, as if the writer had withdrawn from the life he lived: "I look at a body that is not my body," and then recalls his childhood with a mature mind and says: "This is the child I was. " However, writing down the subjective lived experience was not sufficient to place the book under the title "Autobiography" or "Memoirs," because the technique in which Abdo Wazen wrote his experience made the book "An Open Heart" difficult to describe. The methods intertwine between remembering, imagination and dreaming, which makes the book closer to the autobiographical novel that depends in its events and situations on the private life of its writer. This is what Wazen himself says on p. 205: "I am the one who writes and I am the one who writes about him or writes. " The writer decided to present his life according to a thematique, not a chronological, narration. However, it was the things scattered around him, the colors he saw and the feelings that he experienced, all that stirred his memory and brought the previous stages from the past to the present. The white color that filled the room reminded him of his pure and innocent first love. As for the wounds in his chest, he recalled the image of the wound he had inhabited since he was a child, when the bullet entered his shoulder and passed along the heart without piercing it. The darkness of his painful night reminds him of the images of mourning that he knew in his early childhood after his father's departure, as well as of the black clothes that their neighbor wore until the last day of her life after the death of her only son drowning in the sea. Then the darkness of the night transported him to the black continent to re-watch part of his life tape in the country to which he immigrated after the outbreak of the Lebanese civil war "Kinshasa", where he had intercourse for the first time with black-skinned girls and felt with them the meaning of love, warmth and safety, and from there to the blackness that rises from "a pit" Inside" as a result of the depression he knew at the age of thirty. This type of narration brings the divergent stages closer and eliminates the separations between the past, the present and the future. I think that "the central narrative is the most suitable for the internal notes that Open Heart includes. "This intersects with the introduction of one of the well-known French biographers, Francois Mauriac, in his new internal memoirs, Les Nouveaux Memoires Interieurs, when he said: "These notes, because they are internal, mock the chronology. " In his biography, the writer addresses an absent reader without naming him or addressing him or mentioning him, as if he wants through his long internal monologue to confirm that this act of writing is directed first to himself and through it to others. And this "I" in its regression and drowning in its intimate self, is also submerged in the broad, harmonious "I" to which we all belong. This is what the recipient senses when he finishes the book with the feeling of "the writer or what is written about him. " itself with transparency, credibility and depth.